The In-Between
What are you doing right now?
Not literally right this second, obviously you're reading. But in general, what are you doing with your life?
Are you in a season where things are busy but generally going well?
A time where you feel like you're non stop running but it's for a specific goal that will be so worth all of the exhaustion?
Or maybe do you feel like you're in a season of "bleh". Where each day rolls into the next. Where you don't have a particular project or goal you're working towards. You're just going through the motions and waiting for something new to happen.
I feel like I was just in that season. The waiting.
I didn't have anything particular I could work towards because I was waiting for Hayden to be born.
I was going through the motions of day to day life and just getting done what had to be. It was hard because there were moments where I was perfectly fine just vegging out, having no place to be and watching tv all day.
But then there were days and moments where I would beat myself up and be so mad that I wasn't being productive or working towards any kind of goal. I was mad that I wasn't getting anything done or "accomplishing" anything in my life.
Little did I know I was setting myself up for a huge task.
In the moment I was upset that I was so complacent and I felt quite useless. But it wasn't until recently that I realized in order to be where I am now, in a season of busy, I had to be in that in-between season.
I had to rest my mind and my body and my soul.
I needed nothing new so that when it was time, the new would flow easily.
I needed to not think too hard and to relax and enjoy my muses. Because now, I am so full of ideas and concepts and words from that time of reflection and rest, I can hardly get it all out!
Now I find myself staying up until the wee hours of the night just to get my thoughts down.
I have three Trello boards right now just dedicated to content that I am creating and that I want to create.
I realize that if I hadn't had that in-between season I wouldn't be prepared for the jobs that I am stepping up to now.
So I encourage you, if you're feeling down, unproductive and generally "bleh", consider what season you're in. Are you in the waiting place? The in-between?
If you are, try to embrace it. Don't think about it too much- that's the whole point. Just sit with it. Enjoy the rest and realize that before you know it you won't be able to shut off your brain. It'll take off and you'll be back in a season of hustle and busy until the next in-between.